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Stop looking back. Stop thinking about the past and using it to determine your future. Look forward. What do you want? Head in that direction
I may not be who you want me to be, and I’ve definitely done the wrong things at the wrong time for the wrong reasons. Some may think it’s arrogant to forgive myself for things I’ve done which have hurt others, but if we cannot move past the pain and resentment of the past, we have no chance at finding peace in the present, and I choose peace. It doesn’t help you to have me relive my past and my guilt. We don’t need more hate in the world, we need more love.
A funny thing happens when you let the past go: you fall into a deeper integrity with yourself. You are able to make better choices because your ego isn’t keeping you focusing on who you were and what sort of person you ‘should’ be. Instead, you can just focus on what feels peaceful, and what feels kind. There’s no conflict between what I want and what you want: I’m pretty certain we both want a kinder and more loving space to exist
Photo taken at: New Polzeath
And so she wandered, though the space in her own mind, and realised, perhaps for the first time, that all the pain she’d suffered, seemingly at the hands of others, she inflicted upon herself: to remember, to hold sacred, and to continue to use to torture herself, long after the dream ended. And so she resisted the change: the healing, because it had been so easy. After years of trying, and fighting with herself, she realised that the truth was there right in front of her the whole time, and all she had to do was look behind the wall she’d built through her own fear, and accept it. Somehow, it seemed it had been better to continue to fight, to reaffirm her rightness and justify her judgements, than to admit that she had been wrong all along, and it really didn’t matter what had happened in the past. To find true peace, it only required one thing: forgiveness. And the moment she relinquished the need to be right, to keep score and store the points she’d supposedly won for being the ‘bigger person’, healing flooded through her, and she recognised that the peace she had so longed for, had been with her all along
Photo taken at: New Polzeath
Photo Caption: “Nothing meant to be in your life will ever require you to abandon yourself to keep it.”
I slightly misquoted this (sorry!), but you get the point. Never abandon yourself under some illusion that you need something in your life that requires you to be different to who you are. If it requires you to be something you’re not, or deny how you feel, it’s not for you. Walk away. Make space for what is meant for you
Please go read this in it’s entirety – it’s not my work, but I love it, and perhaps, you may find comfort in the humanness of it ↪ https://thoughtcatalog.com/janne-robinson/2018/12/i-dont-care-what-youve-done/
Who are the people who really SEE you? .
Who are the ones who refuse to believe the stories you tell yourself and consistently challenge you to step into your true power? Keep these people close, and be grateful for how uncomfortable they sometimes make your ego feel
If I can trust myself,
I can trust you,
And know that it’ll be ok,
Even if it’s not.
Before you get vulnerable, ask yourself, can I share this with you, and be ok, regardless of your response? Do I trust myself enough to hold myself, no matter what you say or don’t say?
Can I take responsibility for my feelings, regardless of yours? Do I need you to validate or hear me, in order for me to feel ok about what I’m sharing?
Learn to trust yourself, before you trust anyone else
There is love,
Waiting for you,
In the dark places of your heart,
In the fear of the unknown,
In the taking of risks
Waiting for you, to choose it
Photo taken at: Midigama East, Sri Lanka
Even when stuff happens that I don’t expect. Even when it hurts. Even when it feels impossible.
The only thing we can ever do is come back to what feels true for us. Staying in alignment. Loving ourselves more.
Everything is perfect. Whatever has happened has happened for us. To help us grow. To help us love. To help us release the fear we carry around like a shield to the outside world.
Softening into truth. Trusting in the process. Surrendering. Life is just a series of experiences – we can choose to embrace them, or not